I still haven't finish my portfolio completely. Why is my motivation so down?
The reason I'm doing it, is to "work" in Japan. In vocational school, we have this 4,5 month period of working in a real job - though, we won't get paid. It's possible to accomplish that period in overseas, and that's my goal. I've already looked for some places to apply to, but.. aaagh.

I'm stressing about it more than I have ever stressed about. It's something I WANT and something I NEED soooo badly even I can't imagine. Something so big...
More than I would be stressed about "am I skillful enough" is "what about my piercings".
I know I can take them off while I work and so on, but I'm just überstressed how the company I'm applying to would react. Along my ears, I've pierced my nose and lip. Am I bad for the company's image? Do I look like a slacker?

Then I looked at the mirror. I saw a girl with piercings.
But more than that, I saw a girl with a kind and a harmless face.

I saw an idea.

Photos and photos of people and people with piercings in their face, looking innocent, warm, nice, full of life, helpful, trustworthy, happy, honest, easy to approach, determinate - looking so damn pretty.
I want to show everyone that having piercings doesn't make anyone a bad person.

First I thought "I can never make this happen, I don't have a studio", because I wanted them to look like studio photos, at least smoething like that. But then... I made it happen. Today (..yesterday) I took some shots of my classmate who has a lip piercings, and tomorrow (... today) my other classmate is coming over! Wednesday is also a photoshoot day.
I've promoted this a little, and I've heard that some other people may have been interested... which is good because along these 3 friends I've already asked, I don't know anyone else with pierced face... and I want looooots of photos!

Why I decided to make it actually happen, is because I take this photography course at työväenopisto, and it's about human photography. It began in autumn, and we had technical assignments like "think about different angles", but for spring we all will do our own projects. When I heard this, I was like... oh no... I have nothing... but then I remembered my idea.

So, if I get a permission from my models, you might see some photos of Pretty and Pierced people here on devART. n___n


... oh yeah, this is my "studio" - [link] - yes, it's in my room.